I really dislike butterflies..metaphorically and literally

Speech by Eric Thomas featuring Giovanni Ruffin

i recommend this book to everyone! Very good.

i’m so broken .__. after watching this, I’m so disgusted with myself.

The past 3 days I have been sleep deprived and today was the day that I regained all my sleep. So on Thursday, I had a school oreientation so I didn’t sleep at all because I had to wake up mad early for the Long Island Railroad. What was funny was that I still missed my train because of Lam and had to wait 2 more hours. I arrived late for the orientation but still got things done I guess excluding my id photo. I had met some people but didn’t really talk and I have to say I’m pretty shy with everyone :[

On Friday, I had to wake up early in the morning to play volleyball with a couple of friends. After playing, we went to Andres’ house to bum out. At first everyone wanted to watch insidious, but being the chicken I am, we did not :). Instead we watched this Korean movie called, “I saw the devil.” It was about a psycho killer being a victim of revenge and it was a very mind fucking movie. It was very violent and sort of gruesome. The guy that’s taking revenge on the man who killed his fiance just makes the killer’s life a nightmare. The first time he found him, he beat him up and broke his left arm. He also made him swallow a tracking device to find him wherever he is. During the first meeting, he gave him money to heal his wounds only to painfully reopen them. During the second meeting, he beats him up again and cuts his hamstring(the part in the back of your ankle between your ankle and foot) off which is NASTY! There were a lot of things that were hard to watch like impaling a screw driver into someone’s face. The serial killer also wanted to get even so he murdered the fiance’s side of the family, which could have all been avoided if the avenger listened to the family because they told him to stop it. In the end, he kind of became the psycho and it was very sad because he realized he could never bring his fiance back. Overall, this movie gave me something to think about. The content if very heavy and helps me to keep more aware of my surroundings. We all thought this was worse than a scary movie because it was based on real life and considering that were people out there that do these things, it was pretty…eh. I was mad scared to bike home that night because of that movie. DON’T TRUST SHADY TAXI DRIVERS. (don’t watch it if you have a weak stomach and i said before, the content is pretty heavy.)

On Saturday(today), I woke up at 630 because of a friend’s call. Imagine if he didn’t call me. I didn’t get much sleep the past 2 days so I feel like everything crashed today. As soon as I woke up, i ate everything I could find. Then I called Andres to bike to church and we went to church after and got home afterwards. Then I began to write this tumblr post. 

I’ve been playing Lol too much to ,but it’s the summer :) 

Today was horrible! I got a job to tutor a church dongseng at church, which is located at woodside. I wanted to ride my bike there because it saves metro card money and it’s good exercise. Before I left my house to head out to woodside, my mom kept suggesting me to take the train saying how it was so hot today would be. I’ve biked farther distances so I told her it was okay, so I left. After I crossed the Roosevelt bridge from Flushing, all of the sudden, it felt very bumpy. I thought the road was just bumpy, but as i kept going, it got heavier and it wouldn’t stop. I turn to check my back wheel and it was FLAT! I kept walking down the road till I found a gas station with a air pumping machine to pump the wheel…BUT when I got there and began the process, the wheel wasn’t filling up. Luckily, Susan lived close by, so I went to her house to drop my bike off and she offered me to use her bike to get to church on time, and i took her offer. When I finished tutoring the little noob, I got on her bike to ride back to her house to pick up my bike. BUT, as i was getting there, her bicycle’s back wheel was going flat. I was like, “I can’t be THIS FAT!”. I rode my bike many times before :( So, I went to a nearby gas station to pump her bike(wasting money -_-), and the wheel was pumping up and it was a big relief because I would feel so bad if i popped her wheel to. So, I continued my ride back and the wheel began to deflate again and eventually became flat. However, without faltering, I continued to ride on flat wheels and made it there.

Susan is so nice, saying it was okay to what I did to her bike. I’ll pay for the repairs when she fixes it but, after I got there, we went to the bike shop near her house. When we got there, I talked to the guy and told him my bike was flat. INSTANTLY he knew what was wrong for some reason. It’s like that asshole is scamming me setting up some traps to pop my tire so I can go to him. Anyway, I paid him the money to repair the wheel and it was fixed(Finally). He told me the tube inside came out or something, idk..screw that scammer.

I rode back home and called Andres to see if he was going to the gym and during the call he was telling me how his bike was flat to. We rode together the night before, so something must have happened(I’m assuming). He got his tires fixed and told me that he had the same problem. Coincidence? Anyway, he came over my house to help me buy my laptop for college, and we were off to the gym. We decided to ride there.

During the ride, I went pretty ahead cause I thought Andres would follow behind. As I was about to cross to the next street, it was a yellow light so I yelled to him for him to go through. I zoomed past and the light turned red so it was possible he didn’t follow through. Regardless, I kept going, trusting him to catch up. After biking quite the distance, I looked back to check and he wasn’t there. I waited for like 5 minutes, but he wasn’t coming. I thought that he got hit by a car, seriously. So I rushed back but there was nothing and he was gone. I went back and forth like five times and it was pretty damn tiring because of all the uphills. I didn’t take my phone with me so I couldn’t call him. It was common sense to meet at the gym, but he wasn’t there. I was really worried till I decided to go to the gym and use their phone to contact him. On my fifth trip back and forth, he was waiting in front of the gym and I felt very relieved. After the gym, I went home, took a shower, and now I’m writing this long long note.

I had to ride FAR distances on flat tires, I wasted money for air, I thought I lost a friend, and not to mention that it was like 95 freaking degrees. I’m glad this day is over and I’m debating on whether I should ride to work tomorrow or if I should take the train. WHAT IS LIFE?

So I just finished my health, immunization, and meningitis form for college. I didn’t do much today except pick up my diploma at school in the morning and going to my pediatrician for my forms. After I got my tuberculosis shot, I was given a Garfield band-aid…that i still have on! Anyway….  

When i went to my pediatrician, she said some things that made me feel elated in a way :) She was like, “I’ve seen a lot of kids grow up since they were just babies. I have to say, you are one of the more well grown kids. Even though I don’t know much about what you do in your life, I can tell you have grown well. A lot of the kids that came when they were babies have now gone to a negative direction but you’re different.” This woman has been my doctor since I was like 1 years old and even though I barely go her even when she calls me to come, she is still able to remember my face. :) She also asked me what I wanted to be when i grow up, and i was like, “doctor.” She kind of seemed elated that I said that, but maybe it was just me. hehe

I just have orientation day to go to in July to schedule my classes and do all the other college stuff and I’m set! I’m sitting here writing this post till I am able to take my shower cause I can’t take it until 7:30 because of my shot; and I’m so sweaty, it’s disgusting. Oh, and now that I have my diploma, I can finally say goodbye to Franny Lew. So goodbye Franny Lew, I will miss me to :D

I’m going to take my shower now 

I will start blogging about my life for personal purposes from now on. I kind of want to keep a “journal” or blog I guess, on how my life goes after high school.

Today was graduation and I really want to just congratulate everyone who graduated. My mom and I went to graduation with Andres and his family and I can’t believe this stupid high school told everyone to get there by 8 am! And the thing even ended 4 hours earlier…they over exaggerate everything! After graduation, we went to eat MEAT, the greatest food known on earth! I think it was some Brazilian place and after that, I had the worst food coma. That pretty much sums up what I did today :p

Everyone will do different things and our generation will shape the future of society. Whatever everyone does from now on is up to them and no one should judge them of being “lower” then others. One thing I didn’t like about my school is that its full of arrogant so called genius’. Intellect shouldn’t be measured by a person’s grade. That can be controlled by one’s determination. I actually find a lot of these genius’ moronic, not that I am saying I’m smart or anything. I’m getting off topic. But..to conclude the part about my high school graduation, it was great seeing everyone again. If anyone reads this, and if you abide by the “true friends will stay in touch” thing, if I don’t stay in touch, it doesn’t mean I wasn’t your true friend. People move to different environments and eventually can lose connection. For example, I don’t live with my dad anymore because of family issues and I haven’t seen or talked to him in the longest time. He may not be here now but he was there before. I can’t deny that he was a “true” father. So, when I told everyone that I will miss them, I sincerely meant that. Class of 2011 ! :) I don’t know who took this picture, but credits to whoever did!
  

But other then that, when I look back at things now, I really regret not doing a lot of things in high school ; such as joining a team or even doing good in school. I find myself a very lackadaisical, irresponsible, and careless individual. If I were to pursue what I currently want to be, I have to really focus when I go to college. No more games! No more distractions! I will live in the library if it comes down to it! 4.0 GPA is everyone’s dream and many people want to be doctors. Hopefully I can be successful :)

I will definitely miss high school and I have much to regret about it :( Once again, congratulations everyone and hopefully this will be the beginning for many of us :)

Question of the day : Who else got hit by a cap? :[